Personal hell thing again... don't mind me. My brain is sore. Do you ever have those moments when you have so much going on in your head that you actually don't know where to start? The organised filing cabinet in my brain feels like it's been attached by a 3 year old with a pair of scissors... "Silence! I KILL YOU!"
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
UUUUGH!
General Stuff
I woke this morning to a quiet household... So quiet in fact that it was actually creepy, until my mother's hairdryer kicked in. My grandfather left at around 4am, taking his nutty girlfriend with him. My home will be returning to a state of stability again... Ok, quick catch up time... 1) 2) 3) 4) That's all I have time for.
I am still two albums behind and have a wedding this weekend. *insert McCauley Culkin, Home Alone screaming face -- Here --* Yes, stress has a face, and it's mine. I will actually be glad when wedding season is over, and I am finished will all my albums. I am in desperate need of a break.
I am going to JHB on Thursday. Yeugh. I'm not complaining because of the work, I'm complaining because I just hate JHB. How anyone can live there is beyond me. The place is a grim, polluted wasteland... and yet still seems to breed money. Go figure.
I seem to have acquired a basic understand of MMA (Mixed Martial Arts), thanks to Wikipedia and Google. I'm going to stand by my initial thought of "bloodsport" though. *shivers*
It's scary shit if you don't know someone who actually does it, and who can explain bits of it to you.
My newest saying is "I KILL YOU"... Thank you Achmed.
Enjoy
x
Monday, May 26, 2008
Simple Plan on YouTube
YAY! Simple Plan have their own page on YouTube. Check out the videos!
All kinds of yummy ... SIMPLE PLAN
Take My Hand - Simple Plan
Hey Hey
Hey Hey
Sometimes I feel like everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say we're never going to make it
But I know we're going to get through this
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't
[Chorus]
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment
Another kiss says we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us they would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't
[Chorus]
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
Hey Hey
Hey Hey
The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face and it keeps me going
If I get lost your light's going to guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home
[Chorus]
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time
[Chorus]
Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die (Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU....
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Yes, I am in my own personal hell at the moment...
Thursday, May 22, 2008
I’m still in love with Simple Plan
You know how you like a band, and then you listen to them too often, and then they just become awful? Well, I don't know if it happens to you, but it certainly happens to me, but it's never happened with Simple Plan. I can still listen to their music and love them, no matter how many times I've heard their songs. So anyways, I have been listening to Simple Plan's NEW album... and you know what? They have just gotten better with age... They are still rocking out, but they've grown up and you can hear it in a) their sound and b) their lyrics. I have fallen in love with "Save You" the 5th track off of Simple Plan's new album, Simple Plan III. It, like many of SP's songs just makes you feel so amazing inside. It makes you want to dance and wish that the world would just fade away until there was nothing left but you and the music... "Save You" Take a breath Sometimes I wish I could save you When I hear your voice Sometimes I wish I could save you That if you fall, stumble down (Ahahaha) Sometimes i wish i could save you I wish I could save you I wish I could save you (oh)
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
Its drowning in a whisper
It's Just skins and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Freaking YAY!
Seeing as it’s flippen IMPOSSIBLE to get a whole Red Jumpsuit Apparatus CD, I got the Teen Spirit 3 today for Face Down from RJA. I’m not complaining about the buy, the TS3 CD is fantastic, but I’d really, really like to pick up a WHOLE RJA CD at some point.
Speaking of the TS3 CD, it’s gone one of my absolutely favourite songs on it… Dirty Little Secret by The All American Rejects. They really are a great band. Their slow songs can get a bit tiresome, but their fun, upbeat songs like this one, and Swing Swing are absolute great.
All American Rejects – Dirty Little Secret
Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping thoughts won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this life out
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Who has to know
Who has to know
Monday, May 19, 2008
Xenophobia is a Crazy Man, with a Gun and a Lighter, Living in South Africa
There are days that I am embarrassed to call myself a South African. At the moment the black communities in the Gauteng area seem to have turned into monsters and demons. I hesitate to call them animals, because I believe that animals wouldn’t do what they’re doing to each other.
So the “problem” is immigrants. People from our neighbouring countries, ie: Zimbabwe, Nigeria, Malawi, Namibia are coming into our country and finding employment and/or failing that, turning to a life of crime. Sure, as a white, female South African the crime in our country is a big issue for me. But then so is BEE… For those of you who have been living with your head in the sand BEE stands for Black Economic Equity or Empowerment. Meaning that in order to get a job in just about any large corporation in South Africa these days you have to be a black man or woman. Please note that BEE actually, in many cases, does not extend to Indians and/or Coloureds… So before you get on your high horse and call me a racist, I’m not. I’m simply stating the facts as they stand. However, the point I’m trying to make is that I am not about to go out and kill someone because I believe they are taking a job away from me…
I am disgusted at what has been happening in our country. Being the kind of person that I am I tend to avoid the news, because it is always full of doom and gloom but today the reality of the situation hit home for me when I picked up the Mercury sitting on my desk, and on the front page was a man kneeling on his hands and knees… burning to death. The image was worsened by the policeman standing behind him, smiling for the camera, instead of attempting to put the flames out.
What kind of person is sick enough to watch someone burn to death? Where is the spark of humanity that says “stop, this is wrong?” I can understand someone taking a gun and shooting a person, it’s an instant death. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not agreeing with it, or condoning it, but I understand it. I can’t understand, can’t process and certainly can’t accept someone pouring petrol on someone and setting them alight… watching as they scream and eventually murmur through the pain because they can’t do anything other than moan because their vocal cords have been burned away.
So as I sit here in tears, crying at the horror that I see on the news, I ask myself and the world, how far have we actually come in the 14 years since apartheid ended? We are a sick-to-the-core country. If you live in South Africa and you have the money… leave… Run as far and as fast as you can, because the question I ask after watching the news and reading the newspapers is… who’s next?
The following images come from News 24
There are more photos in the slideshow.
It's images like this that make me look to the heavens and ask "why?"
This is our only hope, isn't it?
Sunday, May 18, 2008
I think I’m losing it...
My grandfather is staying with us again, and if it were just my grandfather I'd be really happy, but he insists on bringing along his girlfriend. I'm sure he could leave her with her family when he comes to visit, but he doesn't... Why is this such a drama in my life? Ok, well first of all it's my grandfather's girlfriend that he had whilst my grandmother was still alive. So I'm not about to start treating her like one of the family. She also has Alzheimer's which is probably the only reason I tolerate her, because I feel sorry for her, but due to her illness she does the craziest things that drive me up the freaking wall! She talks to herself... constantly, but in like a loud whisper... but CONSTANTLY... I've started wearing my headphones permanently at home, because it just freaks me out. It's like she's possessed. And she sits on the couch and pulls her hair out... strand by strand until there's just hair all over the floor. She also doesn't flush the toilet, and talks to me about events in her life that I have no idea about... I think she thinks I'm someone else. She also goes to bed at 7pm at which time I'm not allowed to make any form of noise... Noise being talking or listening to music, or whatever else my mother can class as noise... I think I'm going to get some Godsmack from Ian and play it at 5:30am. So my sense of humour is non-existent at the moment, and unfortunately they're here for another week and a half or so. They've been here since Friday and I've already lost it. Thankfully I have wedding albums to finish, so I will be putting on my headphones and focussing on editing and listening to music. UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
I have a headache...
I think I'm really catching the flu L Which totally sucks, because I have a wedding this weekend I have an album to finish, my grandfather and his girlfriend are coming to visit for a week and I'd like to get to see a couple of people at some point over the following week. So I'm busy. I'm feeling strange today... I think it's caused by the headache, but who knows?
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
In case you haven't noticed, I'm slightly obsessed with this band. Gareth Cliff from 5FM played their song Face Down this morning, which is on the Teen Spirit 3 album, and is also why I'm so surprised that it is impossible to get my hands on their CD. You'd swear I was asking for gold coins to come falling out of the sky! Their album "DON'T YOU FAKE IT" is available from Wal-Mart but not Musica... I mean, come on! SURELY if it's hit mainstream radio it would be available? Surely? But apparently not... so I've ordered Teen Spirit 3 for 1 song. Look, the album itself is very good, it's just that I really, really want RJA's full album L Oh the FRUSTRATION! UUUUUUGH!
Stuff and Fluff
Dear Mr Sandman Please will you come and sprinkle your sand in my eyes tonight, so that I too can go to the land of sugar and dreams. – No, this is not a drug induced post. I am just so tired! I don't seem to sleep well these days. I get to bed at a "reasonable" hour, normally sometime between 9:30 and 11:00 but I seem to be waking up every couple of hours, so I'm not getting a solid night's sleep which is making me slightly crazy. Crazy to the point that I'm actually avoiding people, in the event I end up saying something to offend them. So why am I not sleeping? I'm not sure... as always my life is complicated and confusing, but that's nothing new. I've got stuff I'd like to talk about but at this point I just can't, which kinda sucks, but hey that's life. I've started a new blog, no it's not a "life drama" blog :P It's all about the games that I'm playing at the moment, what I like / don't like, what's new that appeals to me, etc... It is also going to include little things like flash games and the odds and ends that I find on the net. You can find my gaming blog at http://non-gamer.blogspot.com The wedding thing is still going strong, and I'm enjoying having the extra cash, which helps to a) make a dent in my debt and b) allows me to buy things like R500 Wii games. My monthly newsletter seems to have gone down the drain. I don't know why but I have lost the inclination to talk about my life. At the moment it's pointless though as I really don't have much to report on that you can't get off my blog. Yay, my Sims expansion is on its way. I ordered 2 x DVD's and the Sims 2 Bathroom & Kitchen Stuff Pack :D Yes, I am still a Sims addict... Anyways, that's about as much as I have time for. Hope everyone is keeping well... xx
Sunday, May 11, 2008
The Important Bits
... Every now and then in your life something so profound happens that you either have to talk about it, or for whatever reason simply can't put it into words.
For those who are reading this and think I have lost my mind, don't worry, it's a bit of a private joke...
And for the person who insists that the Important Bits need to be mentioned, herewith is the mention ;)
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