How Bizarre is Life?

It's been a while since I updated this thing, and although I'm going to try and avoid hurting feelings I have come to the realisation that I can't live my life trying to please the world.

Ok, so what is going on in the life of Ash?

Well, firstly I finished the album of doom. Thank heavens for small miracles. There is only so much time you can put into an album before it becomes a thorn in your side, and you end up drawing red horns on the bridal couple. I pray that I never get another wedding this size again. It's just too much stress, and the amount of money that I get back from it doesn't warrant the amount of time I put into it. That is something which Steven was trying to drill into me the other day.

Speaking of Steven, we had a mild fallout. Only a mild one though and seem to have made up and are friends again. I will never understand that man, but I guess that is part of his charm... his ability to piss you off one second and be friends with you the next.

Oh yeah, about men in general... why are the good ones married, live overseas or gay? I found the guy of my dreams online, but of course, he lives in an entirely different country. I mean, it would be impossible to find the guy of my dreams living in the same town as me, so ya... Life carries on hey. He is a lovely person though, and we have a fair amount in common, which makes it worse. It would be ok if we had nothing in common other than the internet, but we both enjoy the same music, and, oh happiness, he plays in a band... All my life I've wanted a rocker boyfriend :P No, that is not sarcasm... I love a man who is musically inclined. And by musically inclined I don't mean listens to music :P And he's good looking to boot. Why can't Australia be a couple hours away by car? I could live with that... not a whole freaking plane flight to another country! So is this motivation to get my life sorted out and get the heck out of this country? Can you spell Y.E.S...

Let's see, what else has been going on. Apart from work and weddings nothing much hey. I'm enjoying life in general, although I do seem to be having some serious down days lately. A friend suggested I go see someone because he thinks I could be suffering from depression and could need medication. My answer to that was I know I have my depression type days, but I'm not medicating myself. We all have bad days, yeah, mine can be a little harsh, but that is only because I'm 29 and single. The one thing I crave more than anything in life is to get married and have a family of my own. Until that happens I will never be a whole person, or at least, that's what I believe.

Anyways, I have work to do. Have a good day all...

xxx