Drowning...

I feel like I'm drowning, and I'm not sure why.
I feel like I'm about to hit panic mode.

Once again I feel like I'm running backwards. I met a great guy, and we had two great weeks together, and then out of the blue he decided that he wasn't ready for a relationship. So once again I'm sitting wondering wtf happened?

My birthday is in a month and a half. I'm turning 30... 30. Who turns 30, is single and still lives at home with their mom? Oh... wait... that would be me.

I actually don't feel like a person anymore. I feel like a work robot, devoid of hope and emotion. Once again I'm existing in a world that I just can't connect with.

So this year I'm not doing anything for my birthday. I've decided that I'd rather just stay home and play games.

*sigh*